The Tragedy Of Juliet and Romeo

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The Tragedy Of Juliet and Romeo Montagues and Capulets have fought all their lives. Romeo falls in love with Juliet, the moment he sees her. But what if she never liked him back? Have a small recap on Romeo & Juliet here: https://www.bbc.co.uk/bitesize/guides/zxrjfrd/revision/1#:~:text=It%20is%20a%20tragic%20love,being%20separated%20from%20one%20another. “No Romeo, I never thought about you that way," Juliet said, sitting in the brim of the window in her room. Romeo had climbed all the way up to her window. He looked disappointed but didn’t lose the spirit. “Did my heart love till now? Forswear it, sight! For I ne’er saw true beauty till this night”, he expressed. Juliet frowned. “Well, you’re just 16. Trust me, there are more beautiful people than me. Also, stick to normal language. It’s hard to catch up”, she said. “You remember you kissed me? How would you explain that?”, Romeo questioned her back. She swallowed in confusion. “Romeo, I’m barely 13. What do you expect me to ...
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Depression Diaries #3: Everything is F-word'ed up!

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 I never wanted to continue this series. Screw that, this was not even a series when I wrote the first article. I was just venting out and thought of writing down all my rant. If you notice keenly, these articles come out only once a year. Every year, I run out of people in my life and live through a period of life where I’ll have to survive alone. The worst part is, life plans all the freaking bad things during this period, exclusively. So, you won’t even have a person to tell all this about.

I’m really happy people are still reading my blog. Every time I write this, I feel I’m doing injustice to my readers because there’s really nothing you could get from this. Or, you can get bored. This blog might have the worst flow, or worse, no flow at all, but it’s just me speaking. So, it’ll be not perfect.

I’ve been into this lonely place suddenly, without my friends or family to hear me out. I’ve always had this one life goal, college at Loyola. This has been it, since centuries ago. The problem is, or, one of the problems is, I never thought about what am going to go after in my life, after landing at Loyola. I even had plans, if I don’t get into Loyola, but I never thought about what exactly I'm going to use Loyola as.

I thought photography was my thing, but the only thing I’ve done is to write scripts for my classmates. I go out to click photos, but yeah, there isn’t a single photo am proud of. Yep, true. Also, I don’t think am a good writer. I’m not great there too. My college friends are asking me to write, only because of my previous blog articles, or worse, I’m the only writer in my class. Oh God no.

People say I observe well. People say am comfortable talking to. People say am safe, to be around. Yes, I agree. Thanks.

Being this good, I can’t go tell people that’s not what I want to hear. That’ll not look good on me, will it? I’m this person everybody vents out, but nobody wants to hear. Jesus, am freaking out about whether my words will offend the people reading it. Why am I like this?

I want to live my life. I want to live it the way I want. Without thinking about what people would think, if I do this, or if I do that. Yes, it has really been a long time I did something for myself. 

Frustration is what I could feel. It’s hard typing out all my rants. I even tried setting up my camera and talking to it, venting out to my camera. Nothing matched the feeling of talking to people. I get lots of exciting points and story ideas to develop, but I really can’t write them well. I couldn’t.

The thing is, I fear losing people. I don’t want to lose people. I just wish to keep my favorite people around me, forever. So, I tend to comfort them, giving up things I want. In spite of that, people leave. There’s nothing you could do.

There’s my 15 years long known friend leaving me because I haven’t called him, for my birthday party, which was surprise-ly planned by my other friends. There’s my other friend, who cracks jokes at the wrong odd times, and fights, big time. There’s another friend who used to talk with me regularly, who knows nothing about what I am, how I am, now.

I’ve known someone for some time. It had hardly been a few weeks since we started to have exchanges, and she got to spell my name right. I knew I’ll meet her often. It always hits different when you’ve thought a person is strict until you get to know she’s the fun in the whole family. I lost my Paati today. She’ll never greet me at that house when I go there. I’ll have to get used to that. I got the chance of getting blessings from her, for my birthday last month. I think she liked me, despite she got my name wrong. Do you know what’s the worst thing? I never got to tell her how much I like her. I think I’ll never get the chance to tell her.

Ummm, I have been so keen not to spread any negativity through my blogs. And the whole concept of depression diaries is to break that. Am really sorry for posting all this here, but I really need this. To escape from the whole mental breakdown situation. Thanks.

 


It's okay to be not okay.

deepan. 

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